im not that ineresting on paper

I wish I had more to talk about. But im a man of action. Me on paper is boring. Me blogging is boring. Im either talking about music or bitching and complaining.

Im busy working on DJ stuff right now. I have a giant playlist with 15 hours of music in it and i sit and review it occasionally. I filter through to make sure everything is up to par. I used to record hour long sets and put them up for download but thats lost it vibe. Ive been looking at equipment to start doing live stuff. Buying a Hercules console next month and im going to really start looking.

My main concern is how awful everyones taste in music is and everything i play is just going to confuse people. But you wont know unless you find out so I might as well try it out. Of course Louisville is almost weird enough to dig on what im doing.

Music

I hate what its become. I didnt watch the grammys this year, and i might not ever watch them again. Pop music now is a joke. I dont even remember the last time i listened to the radio. I get all my music from my own discoveries on the internets. I dont need someone telling me a song is good. So my tastes have evolved into this weird amalgam of music genres. I prefer artists that have a sound ive never heard before. I like when I can shuffle my itunes and each song sounds completely different from the last.

I have a few sources that I get tips from, rcrdlbl.com is one. I get emails from them with their newest and popular tracks. Or i'll listen to di.fm channels and look up the tracklistings. All the artists I listen to have a particular style. It's that theyre actually trying to express something through music. Not just for the money. But everyone has said that before.

And I really dont care how 'mainstream' and artist is. Music for me serves a very particular purpose. I listen to music in a very analytical state of mind. I listen to how each and every layer of a song adds to its whole. (which is also probably why im an audiophile and have to have a nice set of headphones or my giant shelf unit with 6 speakers, 2 tweeters, a sub. it really allows me to hear all those little things.) and i analyze all the parts like a computer. if they somehow work together to produce a pleasant tone, the track is deemed successful by me.

The tiniest things matter to me too. Perfect pitch transitions, maybe how perfectly harmonious the melody is. A small syncopation on a note, or maybe a very precise cutting, break, reverbs, small things that noone really notices unless theyre looking for them and really get it. A lot of people say they "love" music. I dont necessarily 'love' music as much as i love dissecting it. breaking it down to its very core.


And my knowledge of music really branches out beyond just technicalities. I appreciate the feel of a song when im looking for it. Which is why Id be a good DJ, or music editor for a movie or some similar production. I can understand music on its basest levels. I read what the song means. How it applies. I could read a crowd and give them more of what they want or watch a movie scene and set the perfect music for it. (Music video director would be good also.)

But kids these days dont understand what good music is, and i think it has to do with lyrics. Kids need lyrics telling them its a party song instead of being able to just feel it. Or maybe they dont know what true partying is and like to imagine themselves as something else thats described in the songs. (I listen to mainly music that is intrumental. Lyrics take away from the production of a song. Id rather have another layer or intrument placed instead of lyrics.)

But hey, to each his own.

"civilization"

 (PS the videos i post at the bottom are a kind of soundtrack to the post. Theyre either what kind of inspired the post, or just add a general feel to it. Or sometimes just a song i want more people to hear.)

I was trying to come up with a way to transition into saying this, but I hate people. (Me, whos real life goal is to be a household name, hates the sight of most people. I guess thats why I long to live in a nightclub, DJing where all I see is my computer screen, flashing lights, and I judge my success based upon how wild the crowd sounds.) I hate all types of people. I hate people who use words wrong, or mis-pronounce them. I dont judge people, dont get me wrong everyone is the same in my book. Theyre all met with the same feeling of disgust. Not contempt, or hatred, just general disgust. A few people may slip by, if they seem genuine.

And thats where it really lays. If a person is true to themselves. Culture doesnt exist anymore. Culture is manufactured on TV screens. Every person holds themselves to the standard portrayed by their gender or race thats displayed on TV. 75% of my generation feels like they have to be a certain way. But really thats the way it always is, but this time around its like the standard is this god awful plague upon mankind.

I hate when people look at me. Not like when im ordering food and the waiter is looking at me, but like if im chilling at starbucks, or standing in line, and people walk by and observe me. Every look from a female is one of admiration and lust, meanwhile her boyfriend scowls at my flawless style, height, and my ability to exude confidence. (I purchase all my clothes with the thought of every other purchase in mind. So everything I wear matches everything I own. I can seamlessly cross styles. I'm a Proffesional-modern-hipster-mountain man.) And this isn't just arrogance talking, people always confirm that other people stare at me. And normally this would be taken as a good thing, but deep down it bothers me. It says something about todays culture. I know people are thinking "he looks so good yet so comfortable in being himself." Because I can see it in their eyes, and the way people carry themselves, theyre trying to uphold some image they think they have to be. People arent themselves anymore.

Counter-culture doesnt exist because theres no "culture" to be counter to. There is no real set style, or attitude, but many different forms of it. I could list all day the styles of people, but really its rare for someone to truly be themselves, and even then people automatically look down on them for being different. 

mind over matter

I firmly believe in that statement, in all things. I often experiment with it at times as well. I can change a lot of my environment just by thinking differently. But what it really boils down to is my belief that a positive attitude can effect many things. If you are around someone with a positive attitude, it can effect your own, so why wouldnt simply wishing well change the entire energy flow of the world? "The power of positive thinking" as ive always heard it. Seems to work for me. Well not so much positive thinking as much as it is just not caring.

I spend a large majority of my time in a state of neutrality. Nothing really makes me angry, or sad, or happy. More or less my emotions hover around indifference. I view things from a purely artistic standpoint. Music, movies, paintings, TV, all things. What matters the most to me is if something achieves its intended goal. This allows me to enjoy all things equally. I can listen to all genres of music because i have removed emotion from it. I listen to a song to understand its composition. Things become more basic and visceral.

the living's easy.

Spring is closing fast, im not happy for the weather persay as much as the opportunity to get in more of my meditative activities. Its nice to go out to the driving range and hit a bucket of balls and clear my mind. It keeps me sane. Focusing is really easy for me, if its a mentally stimulating activity, but most of the time my focus is on my own thoughts.

So i sit around and ponder existence, and try to figure out why two things made of the same material wont just bind themselves together. Like a piece of iron in one hand, and an 'identical' piece of iron in the other. Why would a force be there to prevent them from fusing? Im not talking about the science of it, im thinking about metaphysical properties that prevent things from becoming too chaotic. If things like that happened there would be a high risk of your legs suddenly fusing to your chair.

Of course things like that wouldnt be to absurd for me to grasp. If heated correctly two pieces of metal will fuse, but if either your legs or chair were that hot for them to fuse things would be ablaze. So of course things like that wont happen.


And if youre reading this from any form of scientific standpoint its not going to make any sense. You can argue intramolecular forces and debate that when things are forced together huge amounts of energy are both required and released. But im not looking for science, im looking for a more basic understanding.

well...

Since i have time to waste i think ill start doing this thing. essentially i would like for this to be a collection of a majority of my thoughts on important matters. Not important pressing matters, like world events and politics, but more along the lines of the existential being that is 'living'.

I often find myself lost in thoughts of existence, or spending hours contemplating thoughts of how my actions could effect anothers (some would call it manipulation, i call it 'social expermenting') so ive decided I need a place to put my thoughts down in the best way i can, which is of course, in this day, the internet. Hopefully someone will read this and gain insight into their own life.

I like to consider myself a genius. Maybe not in terms of knowledge, but of intellect. I easily grasp concepts others cannot begin to imagine wrapping their heads around. I think far outside the box and like to engage in good arguments about things of which i have no knowledge. I am an enormous asshole yet seem to be liked by everyone i meet.

But I digress, my thought patterns have changed over the past year and i am now realizing i dont think like everyone else. (It is simply thinking ahead, but sometimes i think so far ahead ive forgotten about thinking that far ahead when the time comes then i realize my plans have gone exactly as planned.) So i think i would like to share some of my thoughts with the world, or at least those who are looking for the answers they need.

shinfo

Since im terrible with introductions and all that jazz, im not going to give one. Other than a warning that capitalization, and punctuation will not always be included. Also a fair warning, be prepared to be offended in as many ways as you can imagine.